Digital Baggage can make you sick- when you lose it...

I feel sick, not from a bug or any type of viral infection. Nope, I feel sick because I had an awful no good very bad day. Here's why...

Genius me, decided that my laptop was running toooo slllooowww, so I decided to copy all of my files to a new external hard drive... it took hours and hours while I waited for things to copy over (being an art teacher & a photographer you tend to carry around a lot of digital baggage) & then I went through, triple checked that everything had copied, even to the point where I checked that the file sizes were the same.... ejected my hard drive as I was supposed to, doing everything I knew how to do correctly... then I deleted the files on my desktop. No biggie right? Plus, I have another external hard drive & my husband's computer where things were triple backed up- sure if I lost any info I'd lost the newest documents but I had already made sure they were on the external hard drive.

So, when I sent my files to the recycle bin it said that the files were too big & did I want to delete them permanently. I said "sure" they are, after all, triple backed up...ha ha haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

So, I plugged in my external hard drive yesterday to get a power point doc I was going to show my students & guess what? HALF of all of my work documents were NOT THERE. So I thought- no biggie, I'll just go home during my prep, get on Evan's computer & get it then. ha ha haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

Yep, you guess it. They were NOT backed up like I thought... so I checked our home server & my other external hard drive where I had gotten the documents from in the first place...... again. EMPTY

WHAT THE)#*$)(#&@)$&)*#%&*(#%&)*#&!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Luckily, Evan was home & helped me get a recovery program. Then, 36 hours later....

Most of the files are corrupted. My life for 5 years of gathering resources, fixing my curriculum & power points... gone. Good thing I still have most of the stuff for the classes I'm currently teaching!!!!!!!!

BUT- I lost all of my design work I spent hours on during Christmas break for my photography business.. that makes me want to crawl into bed & say %&@)#*%&@#$)*(&@$)&@#$)*&#@$%*&@#%)&!@$)(&@#$)(*&@#%)*&@#%)*&@#)&*#)%(*!@$(*!@$)(&*@#$)*&@#)$%&*!@)$&@#$)*&!@$)(&!@$)&#$*&#$%)(&!@#)$(&!@#)$*&!@$)(&!@$)*&!#$)*&!#$*&!#$%)(&!$)(&!@#$)(&@#%)*&@#%)&*%*&^)@#*_(&&%&$%()@)(*

Because I might as well have gone on a fun trip, rather than waste all of that time trying to make my business look better so that I could get more clients & make more money & improve my portfolio. F.

So I've decided that I'm not going to worry about it. I still have all of my personal & professional photographs because luckily, those did not get deleted. The rest can go on the back burner until I freaking feel like spending hours on stuff again.

I just want to also say thank you wonderful husband for helping for several hours trying to recover all of that stuff & thank you Pro Digital Photos for still having my DVD case images on file & emailing them back to me. & Thank you Lord for allowing me the opportunity to learn how to keep a positive attitude when I choose not to listen to that little voice before I do something stupid... several times...

Life today

Good thing # 1
Forgetting about a bad day at work by coming home...

Good thing # 2
Chocolate truffles from France. Don't worry Evan, I had two. I am WAYYYYY below my sugar allowance for the day & am being careful. For those of you who think Evan is a controlling husband- don't- I'm hypoglycemic & don't want to get diabetes so he helps me, mostly because I asked him to.

Good thing # 3
Leven Thumps

Good thing # 4
YOGA- no running today, the air is still leveled at DEADLY- creepiness...

Good thing # 5
Cooking a yummy/healthy dinner with my new AWESOME pans! Thanks dad!!!!!

Good thing # 6
Watching "How I Met Your Mother"

annnndd lastly

Good thing # 7 -the best-
Getting to see my hubby when he gets home!

Resolutions Schmesolutions

Every year I do this & every year I fail... kind of. I am doing MUCH better that I was 5 years ago at eating healthy & taking time to get the things done that I want to, so that's still progress right? SO instead of NEW New Year's Resolutions, I'm going to stick with making progress on the old. Curious? Here you go!!!

~ Learn to cook something new that's AMAZING & a keeper recipe
~ Finish writing my book-- this one I REALLY want to accomplish this year. I figure if I work on it a little each week I can have it done, the only problem is, like art, writing requires you to be in a certain "mood" or else the end result is crap.
~ Finish my Christmas Quilt- this one is 6 years in the making... oops
~ Start doing yoga & running again- SOON! The running thing requires not freezing temperatures & the yoga thing requires time. :) Which is something I should have now since I'm only teaching 4 different classes
~ Pass the Praxis, first time taking it next month I think! Keep your fingers crossed that I pass the first time! It's a $180 test! GULP!
~ Get back into the habit of reading my scriptures daily
~ Monthly temple trip
~ Doing daily chores again. I started teaching two night classes & got out of the swing of things.
~ Complete two paintings I can be proud to  hang in my house, this will probably be a summer thing.
~ Get a portfolio ready to apply for a Master's
~ Find a Master's program that will let me teach high school & still get my degree. I'd like to stay away from online & Art Education because my eventual goal is to teach college photography classes
~ Finish the basement & backyard? These are maybes depending on money, but I'd love to get my lighting studio all set up downstairs.
~ Photograph two additional weddings this year... anyone know someone looking for a good photographer??? :)